Reintroducing myself

Hear me out,

I've been at this with The Human Connection Movement for about 4 years and 7 months,

If I've met you in an event in Australia or you've been following our journey over the last 5 years...

I can tell you it hasn't been easy, I've had many breakdowns as well of course cathartic moments in the pursuit of being able to articulate this pulse that I feel ring through my veins.

One of my closest friends and mentors, Lenita Vangellis wrote an incredible book I read in early 2013 called "Ashanti's Symphony"

The tagline of the book is "Every Soul Has One Tone, Occasionally One Comes Along with a Symphony"

The way I relate to this tagline is that I've been feeling the call of my own symphony through my spirit, a non-linear calling that viscerally swept through my body like endless waves, cascading through my cells.

A universal language that continued to captivate me, endlessly, it was euphoric and I couldn't ignore the calling, and the more I followed this pulse, the more insight and illumination would appear.

I did whatever it took to follow this pulse, but I hit a crescendo, and then I fell, pretty deeply, and it was difficult, I realised there was a separation between what I wanted to materialise into this physical existence and the deeper calling of what my spirit wanted to call through.

During this process, I can't begin to count the amount of deaths, and rebirths had occured, but this was what I learned during the process of being swept into the co-creative manfiestation of this global movement.

We are in a co-creation with our spirit, every thought, action, and response when it comes to materialising a creative project, or even ourselves requires us to get out of our own way and allow for the deeper elements at play to orchestrate themselves through us.

This is a joint partnership with spirit, and in order to enter a place of leadership unto ourselves and others, we need to be in a place of complete integrity, everything needs to check out. If something is out of alignment, it will reflect within us to see.

So here is the real kicker, at heart, I'm an artist, facilitator, and creative, but I've also been in "business" for a long time, I've consulted and worked with "socially conscious" startups, tech companies, advertising agencies etc

But this is the key area I find most people, including myself in the past, were challenged by when it comes to birthing a creative project or running a business, or even just birthing ourselves as we are our own creative project.

We aren't personally fully embodying what we are trying to "deliver" to others.

There isn't an inner marriage between who we are BEING and what we are DOING, and this is where I found myself at certain points in my journey.

I was attached to a vision that I had a lot of success in for years, which changed my life and opened new exciting possibilities, to walk a path less traveled that carried a lot of meaning for me, but during that unfolding, I began to hold onto a vision that my ego wanted to materialise, rather than my spirit.

Even if I was sweet and innocent with my intention, I lacked integrity, and I manifested very challenging situations in order to notice what I was creating so I could witness where I was out of alignment.

But now I'm here, and I understand that I am just a vessel for my spirit to move through me, I am in joint-partnership with the mystery, I can feel her pulse, she is always with me.

I no longer see things in black and white, I'm not looking for status or acknowledgment, or to artificially inflate my own sense of self-worth.

I am just here to be here now, to listen, to feel, to love, to play, to create, to dance, and to allow for the highest potential of each moment to materialize itself through my body, to allow for what was intended to be, to just be, and not to get in the way of that.

There's a deep freedom in not being attached to how things materialise, and to be in co-creation with spirit, to hold space for miracles to occur, and to allow for the manifestation of our spirit to work in harmony with the unique symphony that moves through us.

It's deeply humbling to know that there's a language that exists in the liminal spaces, in the silence

The more we sit with the space between the space and begin to decipher the hidden language of the unique dialect in which our spirit calls us forth, the clearer things become.

So by saying that. I'm starting to lean into this new chapter more, and I guess this was a way to express myself and initiate myself through this new beginning and emergence.

I recently came out of an incredible life-changing Embodiment retreat, and one of my teachers Velan Cadden kept saying "I don't know what this is yet."

This was at the end of experiencing a very deep transformational 8-day immersion, and I understood exactly what he meant by that. He wasn't categorising the beauty that was emerging through him, he was allowing for the energy of his spirit and the land to guide him through this continuous unfolding.

And what this cemented within me is that we must really be open to the mystery, to get out of the way of what we THINK we are creating, and allow for the symphony of our spirit to materialise a show we haven't' seen before!

Because guess what, maybe we'll never really know "what this really is"

So why not let it surprise us?

Igor Kreyman

Founder of The Human Connection Movement